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I'm going to be entirely honest about this,

If you voted for Trump, you are a horrible disgusting piece of shit, and I don't want you on my friendslist.

I don't care about any claims that you aren't a racist, homophobe, sexist, islamophbe.

I don't care that you like to pretend that you voted for this con man for 'economic' reasons, cause anyone with a brain could see that Trump's economic plans make no sense and will drive your country into ruin, cutting into any and alll safety programs for the poor, while cutting taxes for the rich. Years and years of republicans in charge in Congress and Senate should have shown that by now;

If you voted for Trump, you basically told every black person in this country that their lives are meaningless to you.
If you voted for Trump, you told every single LGBT person in the county that their safety and wellbeing is utterly and completely meaningless to you.
If you voted for Trump, you told every muslim, every latino, every person who doesn't share your faith or lifestyle that they and their children can drop dead.
If you voted for Trump, you've just told every man in the country that you're just fine with rape, sexual assault and sexism in any and all forms.

And if you voted for Jill Stein or Gary Johnson, then you're just as bad, because you looked at two candidates, one a woman who might not be perfect, but who's lived a life of service, and the other a sexist fascist who built his campaign on racism, sexism, islamophobia and homophobia, and you didn't see the difference, because you just didn't give enough of a fuck about the people who'd be hurt by Trump to make sure he woudln't get in charge..

I don't care for any pretense that that is not the case, because that is the exact message you just sent out. And that's not the kind of person I want on my friendslist.
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At this point I'm just too pissed to calmly discuss the American election. I'm not American, so it'll be a while before we start seeing immediate consequences of this gigantic mistake. But I feel so sorry for all the women,members of minorities and LGBT people who are going to suffer because of this.
Working on my art for the reverse bang. It's a drawing of Dean. Anyone feel like playing art beta for me, so I can get rid of at least the worst of errors? Just want to see if I get this right, if not I'll probably just go with a manip.
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[In the Flesh]1. In the Flesh

I love both Rick/Kieren and Kieren/Simon, but i prefer stories that focus on the non-romantic relationships on the show. Friendships, but especially family relationships. That and a further worldbuilding beyond what the show already gave us, and what it's like to be a PDS sufferer in the ITF verse


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2. Lucifer

Lucifer is one of the rare cases where I like a character who can be a bit of an asshole like Lucifer, the main difference of what makes Lucifer work, is that he feels like a child who is starting to learn boundaries, morality, and is struggling to grow up. Which is why his relationship with Linda is as important to me, as the one he has with Chloe. I don't mind Chloe/Lucifer so much, but I prefer for it to be platonic, at least until Lucifer is grown up enough to be with her.

Luciferr's relationship with Amenadiel is one of my fave parts of the show, that mix of love, annoyance and hate is just fascinating to me. Combine that with some Amenadiel/Maze and a heavy dose of Trixie, and you have a big part of what makes the show awesome.



[Underground]3. Underground

One of my fave new shows of the past few years. I love that though the show doesn't shy away from the horrors of slavery, that it never makes the black characters mere victims. These are heroes who struggle for their selfworth, freedom and happiness. Showing their strenght, desire for freedom and humanity, and I'd love any story that reflects that.



[izombie]4. iZombie

I love Clive, I love every single character on the show, but especially Liv and Clive, and there are just so few fics that focus primarily on the relationship between the two of them. Whether it's romantic or platonic, I don't care, long as it has the two of them. And of course, can't forget about Ravi, and Liv, or Peyton and Liv, or any of them together and... I just love the frienships on this show.

I'd adore anyone willing to give me a story that has Clive dealing with the reality of zombies, and how one of his best friends is a zombie, and what that means to him. I'd also love to see more of his private life, and why he likes to keep it seperate from his job.




[sky high]5.  Sky High

The sign up page didn't allow me many characters to choose for this movie, but Warren, along with Will, is amongst my faves. I'd just like to see something that focus on how the school works, what their lives are like after they graduate, how this world deals with superheroes, and  how it interacts with the 'real world'

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I've been a bit out of sorts for the past month or so. So, sorry if I don't respond to things as I should or when I try to distract myself with things.

When I was newborn, my mom had to stay in the hospital for a while, so I was sent to stay with my aunt Gisele and uncle Herman for the first few weeks of my life. (my dad's not really the kind of guy you make watch a baby, period ;-) )

That's when it started. Most godmothers and godfathers are these nice people who give you nice presents and you read them a new years letter once a year and that's that. I was luckier than that. My real godfather didn't really care to make a difference, don't think I've ever seen the man past the time I was a toddler. But instead I got my uncle Herman.

Nonk as I called him, was (and still is)  a flawed man, big, strong, but likely to say stupid racist crap and homophobic nonsense, or anything else that he knew would piss me off. He woudln't mean it, not seriously, but he had this idea that pissing me off was funny. He'd be the kind of guy that'd start tickling you worse, when you begged him to stop. Or who'd try and annoy the hell out of you when he knew he was affecting you.

If this were any other man, I'd probably write him off.

But here's thet hing. Nonk was also the guy who'd soothe my tears when I was bullied in school. Him and auntie were the ones who'd give me all the attention that a kid needed. When my mom was working till I was in elementary school, auntie would come babysit us, and she was the one there for us, and me specifically when I needed her. Her and Nonk.

They were the ones I'd sleep over at, at least once a week, most of the time, I woudln't fall asleep, unless they'd let me sleep in between them, only to then wake up in my own bed in the morning.  (and yes, I did spend enough time at their home, that I had my own room at their place at least until I was over eighteen and their son, my cousin was born.)

I was one of four kids at home, and often needed more attention than my mom could give me, but when I needed it, auntie and nonk were there to do so. Hell, when I was sick, my mom would tell me to go to bed, at most give me a bucket and that was that. My aunt on the other hand would take me to stay with them, let me stay on the couch during the day, and give me a bell to call her or nonk if I needed something.

If I got in trouble, I didn't call either of my parents, I would call Nonk and he'd come save me. Even as a teen or an adult, when my bike had a flat tire, he'd come save me, when my moped broke down, same thing.
Bad snow weather on the way to work? A call to Nonk and with a bit of grumbling he'd get up at five in the morning to drive me to work, even when he was working a late shift that day.

So when a guy like that, who was more of a father to me than my own father gets sick, then it doesn't matter how much he grumbles or nags, you do whatever you can to be there for him. Even if it means daily visits to the hospital, to the point that most of the nurses spent at least some time thinking I was his daughter. Hell, when it was just the problems with his feet, I was probably a more regular visitor than Bart was. (Bart is their son an my nephew) He's a diabetic, and lost half of one foot, and several toes ont he other in the past few years.

Sometimes, when more than I'd like, he'd say crap I utterly disagreed with, and he'd nag even more than my mom does, I'd have to struggle to hold in my temper. But there's some people you just put up with that from. No matter how annoying it gets.

Over a month ago he had one of those few weeks/months that the hospital would let him go home. He wasn't entirely right yet, but he was tired of being in the hospital all the time and got them to let him go home, with bi weekly visits to the hospital. During the night he must have gotten up, felt ill, and needed to go throw up. he was on the couch downstairs, watching television, possibly fell asleep there, or it happened earlier, we're not sure.  He didn't reach the toilet, started throwing up before he got there. Our best guess is that he slipped over the vomit and hit his head. The doctors say he has three brain contusions. My aunt didn't find him untill the morning. She noticed he was out of it, but didn't instantly realize how serious it was. She called the doctor, and instead of to the usual hospital, he was taken to intensive care in Lier.

I can never begin to say how much it hurt to sit there on the second time I went to visit (which I could only do in the weekend, due to how hard it was for me to get to Lier on the visiting hours), and have him not even realize who I am.
Once he was stable he was taken back to Herentals, where he is now. During his first week there, the doctor responsible for the department he was in, said there was nothing to be done, they even mentioned that if he'd die, that they wouldn't do anything to bring him back. Luckily for all of us, he was removed from that floor and sent up, back to the fifth floor. The floor where he knew all the nurses, because he'd been there in various rooms for the past two years. Within a day he improved.

Last week, for the first time since the accident, he remembered my name again. He still doesn't remember everything, and he keeps forgetting things. But most of the time, he 'seems' himself again. But he isn't.
It's hard to explain what it feels like when you're happy he's actually angry at something. Even if it's something as stupid as us refusing to remove the board on his chair, that serves both to hold his food and keep him in his chair. But to know that he remembered what happened and why he was angry over it for the past two days is a huge improvement over the past month.

I miss my uncle, and as much as it annoyed me, I want him to start nagging again. To hear him say ' be careful', and have it be more than just an instinct, something he's always said. Something that would make him ask me to call as soon as I arrived, after driving back home to my mom and dad's place when I was a kid. It's weird to call one place home, when auntie and nonk's place was just as much my home as my parent's place was.

I just want him back, whining, annoying, infuriating, irritating and overly protective as he's always been.

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Title: Destiny Is a Tricky Thing
Author: geekslave
Artist: liliaeth
Characters/Pairings: Scott/Isaac
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: ~25K
Warnings: Brief talk of past abuse (non-graphic), talk of infidelity
Summary: When Scott and Isaac meet they form an instant connection, but the timing just isn't right. Years later they can't forget the night they spent together. Will destiny get out of their way and let them find their way back to each other? Sometimes you have to give destiny a little push.
Notes: all credit goes to my awesome writer geekslave

fic is up at ao3





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I was trying out a tutorial I found in a photoshop magazine, and figured I'd make it with Jensen, instead of with the picture on the CD.

Think it came out pretty well :-)


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Title: You Let Me Stand
Author: hunters_retreat
Artist: liliaeth
Genre: RPS
Pairing: Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki
Rating: NC-17
Wordcount: 30K+
Warnings: Physical and emotional abuse, neglect, mentions of past attempted rape, dub-con due to a beta’s heat cycle.

Summary: Three years ago Jensen Ackles had been a feral beta, caged and dangerous to anyone around him. Three years ago the council sent Jared Padalecki and his team into the Two Forks pack to find out the truth about the claims of beta abuse and neglect. What Jared found was a vicious fight to take the pack away from the Alpha and mated to the feral Pack Beta.
Jensen was sent away to heal but Jared stayed behind to clean out the pack and see if it was worth saving. After three years though, Jensen is ready to go home and confront his past. Jared is hesitant but after their reunion at a Beta Right’s conference, he agrees. It isn’t a smooth journey though and not everyone is happy to have Jared as the Alpha of the Two Rivers Pack. When outside forces try to tear their fragile pack apart, will they be strong enough to stand together? Or will Jared and Jensen fall apart, and take the Two Forks Pack with them?

Link to fic: http://hunters-retreat.livejournal.com/534743.html (Not open yet)

Notes: this was an awesome fic to make art for, hoping it works half as well as the fic it was made for :-)








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Fic title: Fragments
Author name: shadowsong26
Artist name: liliaeth
Genre: Gen (with background het pairing)
Rating: R
Word count: 51,025
Warnings: Character death, discussion of possession and its aftermath, murder and torture and abuse, one character makes a suicidal gesture at one point.
Summary: In an attempt to talk Sam out of seeking Lucifer’s help with the Darkness, Dean tracks down the next best thing on Earth--Nick. As it turns out, he’s closer than they think, and the trace of Grace left in him when he was dispossessed may be vital to defeating the Darkness. Unfortunately, Sam and Dean are not the only ones chasing Archangel fragments, and at least one other person on the trail seems willing to kill Nick to get what they need...
Link to fic: http://fragments-spn.livejournal.com/10162.html



Notes: so glad that I was able to work for art on this amazing fic. It was especially nice to work with a character other than my usual ones for a change*g*




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What is it with this week?

Roxan, a cousin of mine (daughter of my mom's youngest brother), died this morning.
Cause of death still to be determined.


Fuck

Pretty sure she wasn't even thirty years old.
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